I’m extremely anxious around my family lately I’m literally stumbling over my words even just asking someone at dinner to pass me the salt I couldn’t do (I feel like my syntax isn’t making sense at all either)
I’m just scared because they all already hate me and I basically just inconvenience them and I don’t want to bother them anymore
I’m just so sorry because I’m basically this big problem in their lives that would otherwise run pretty smoothly
And when they aren’t outwardly mocking or opposing something I do or say, they’re trying to convince me that they all care about me because I am this big shaking mess
for an ugly person my standards are unrealistically high
(Source: selfd3structi0n, via forgottenverses)



